Stuck

I am currently in a sticky situation. I accepted a job offer and now they seem to be a bit sketchy. I’ve got an unsettling gut feeling that I should back out, but can’t seem to. I tried to let the lady down easy, but she is not accepting my resignation. Now I’m in too deep to back out. Not quite sure what to do.

I think I am just going to fulfill my last duties and then pull out. I really don’t feel comfortable continuing with this job. They are out of state and they only want to converse via text, and their number keeps changing. See? Really sketchy and unsettling to continue. The only thing is they have invested in me a little bit, so I can’t back out now. I’ll wait another day.

Ugh! Why can’t I just say no? I mean, come on! Haven’t I learned my lesson already? Not saying “no” has gotten me into so many jams. I hate that I feel the need to please everybody. It’s so stupid and such a waste of my time. Geez… This is just one more jam I’ve gotten into because of it. ARG!

Anyways, I thought I’d let you guys know what is going on in my miserable life. I will sign off now and wish you all a goodnight.

Overwhelmed

I am completely overwhelmed with work at the moment. Why? Because I can’t seem to get a day off! The only reason I was able to make it through this past week was the fact that I would have tomorrow off. Well, my boss decided to schedule a groom for tomorrow… Without asking if I wanted it.

You would think that I could just say no and that I can’t do it, but no. She made it impossible for me to refuse. They came in to be boarded today and they are leaving tomorrow. AAGH!! I am so pissed that I’m calm. May seem confusing, but sometimes I get so mad that I just can’t show or express how angry I am. I kind of follow that whole saying “If you don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say anything at all.” Well that’s what I’m doing.

I know I mentioned this in my previous post, but my boss REALLY needs to hire someone else. Otherwise I’m going to quit. I am not stable enough to have this stress dumped on me. I think I’m going to take a couple days off because I won’t get a day off till next week. I hate dealing with people… Why do they have to be so mean and manipulative?

Keen seems to be the only one that understands. I came home after work and just cried into my pillow. He came over and dug my face out from under my hair as he payed on top of me and licked my face. I started laughing when I couldn’t stop crying and he was getting, so he started moaning along with me. It was pretty cute. He even got up after being in a dead sleep to alert me. It was the first time he has done that.

My cousin is in town, so I am gonna have to take a couple days off to spend time with her. So, I think that will be my excuse for some me time. I think I should just fly back with her to Oregon for a week. That way I will be completely unavailable. Ack! This week has not gotten off to a good start.